I’ve been in a writing mode lately. Songwriting, anyway. It’s really been years since I’ve focused on songwriting, and it feels really good to try and formulate thoughts, emotions, and passions into lyric phrases.
One song I’m currently working on is called “When You Stand”. Here are the lyrics, as they stand now.
I can’t wait until this is over
I don’t think I’ll ride this out
If I can’t talk to anybody
I’ll never get my feet on the ground
So won’t you be my crying shoulder
Help pick these thorns out of my crown
Will you be there when it’s over
And pick me up off of the ground
Cause we all fall down
Yet we all know how
To point and stare and ignore what’s there
We all fall down
And we wander around
We will find our way when we stand
So I will be your crying shoulder
I will be there till the end
I will be there when its over
You will see me when you stand
The message of the song two-fold. First, we all go through hard times in our lives. We all mess up, we all feel guilty, and we need each other. Yet it is human nature for us to point the finger at somebody else when they are down and totally ignore what is going on in our own lives.
In Matthew 7, Jesus addresses this when he says, “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?” (Matt 7:3-4).
The second part of the song deals with how I want to respond to people around me in need. Rather than point out a spec, I want to be an encourager. I use the imagry of being down on the ground as opposed to standing. I want to be the person that lifts up rather than pushes down. The last line states, “You will see me when you stand”. It’s saying that if you are a person in need, I want to be there for you – to go through the battle with you, and to stand up with you. When it’s all over, and you are back on your feet, I want to be one of the people that is standing with you.
I’m almost finished with the song, and hopefully I’ll get it recorded soon.
July is going to be a busy month. Let’s see, there is a mission trip to Denver. I’m preaching. Oh yeah, and Angela and I are moving 1,209 miles to Durham, North Carolina.
About a month ago, Angela finished her doctoral program at the University of Oklahoma Health Sciences Center and graduated with a Ph.D. in Microbiology. She’s been looking around for Post-Doctoral positions for a while, and found a really great opportunity with the University of North Carolina in Chapel Hill. She’s accepted the position, and we are getting ready to make the move to Durham, N.C. Our house here in Oklahoma City is under contract (it sold in 7 days), and we just got back from Durham where we found a great house, and we are finalizing the contract details currently. It looks like July 31 is going to be our last day here in Oklahoma.
We hold our Bibles high
And we say we’re right
We’ll give you the perfect lines then run and hide
Cant we see we’ve lost the way
Cant we see that its all just fake
As long as they’re watching everything’s fine
Where are you in all of this
We use your name but destroy your image
I say I’m different but I just look the same
So I am over all this empty faith
I’ve been changed by a love I cant explain
So I am over all this empty faith
We’ll white-wash the outside
We’ll do everything right
As long as they’re watching everything’s fine
You ask for more
You search the heart of me
Change the heart of me
So the EP (or EP’s) is starting to come together. I’ve got a few songs recorded. Three, to be exact. A pattern is starting to emerge between all of them – I’m using two main elements in the recordings. Acoustic guitar and orchestra strings. Since I’ve got about half or more of an EP recorded with this format, I’m planning to release one called “Strings”
So, taking a break from the musical creativity of the project, I’ve put some time into the graphic creativity and come up with a few options for cover art.
Here we go:
1. This looks just like one of the Acoustic EP ideas I had a while back.
2. Now we’re using some actual stringed instruments on the cover.
I am disgusted with what I call “American Christianity”. I was at a youth camp last week, and our speaker brought to our attention a recent poll of non-Christians in America. The poll revealed 3 of the top feelings toward Christians in America. They are:
Christians are judgemental
Christians are gay-haters
Christians are close-minded and intolerant
In other words – we’re no more than hypocrites.
There really is no argument against data like that. This is how we as a Christian community are viewed. In my opinion, we’ve earned this reputation. Other statistics show that the general lifestyle of a professing Christian in America does not at all differ from a non-Christian. Things like divorce rates and such are identical. The word “Christian” means “little Christ” – or to be Christ-like. In my opinion, we as Christians are way off the mark when it comes to actually doing what we are supposed to do – to be like Christ.
I recently had a conversation with a fellow youth pastor. It was one of those talks where you kind of come to an epiphany during the conversation. I’d never verbalized it in my life before, but at the end of our talk, I told him, “My greatest fear is that I’ll become like the Pharisees. That I’ll become like the religious leaders that Jesus hated”. Jesus called them “Sons of hell”. He literally pointed to a group of pastors/church leaders and said, “You are sons of hell”. Powerful. It was because they cared more about how they appeared to those around them than what was inside their hearts. They had empty faith. The reason I said I was afraid of becoming like the Pharisees is because, while I truly and genuinely try to live like Christ, many times I don’t. I’ll say that I forgive, but I’ll hold a grudge. I’ll say I care for the poor, but I live in a nice house in the suburbs and hardly ever think about people who have less than I do. I’ll say I want to help the oppressed – the helpless, but I sometimes I feel like I don’t really do anything about social justice or equality. There is a struggle inside of me. There really is a struggle inside of all of us. We are born with a sin nature. Yet, we are also created in God’s image – in the image of a perfect, loving, and merciful God. And we are called to live a life like Christ.
Last week, at camp in Colorado, I wrote a song called “Empty Faith”. This song is many things. It’s a confession – an admission of guilt. It’s a portrayal of the struggle between sin and love that lives inside me. It’s a prayer – a petition to God to change my heart and make me more like Him.
Here are the lyrics:
We hold our Bibles high
And we say we’re right
We’ll give you the perfect lines then run and hide
Can’t we see we’ve lost the way
Can’t we see that it’s all just fake
As long as they’re watching everything’s fine
Where are you in all of this
We use your name but destroy your image
I say I’m different but I just look the same
So I am over all this empty faith
I’ve been changed by a love I can’t explain
So I am over all this empty faith
We’ll white-wash the outside
We’ll do everything right
As long as they’re watching everything’s fine
You ask for more
You search the heart of me
Change the heart of me
May we all have a desire to truly and honestly live like “little Christs”. I encourage you to really examine your own heart, and then ask God to make it more like His.
“Seasons” by Brian Wahl. Strings version, in 720p HD.
Song written May 2009.
This is a song I wrote for my wife, Angela. It says that no matter what life throws at us – whether we go through good times or hard times, love will always remain.
Lyrics:
You are mine
And I am yours
It’s all I’ve ever wanted
This will be
Forever more
It’s all I’ve ever wanted
Nothing could ever take that away
I am here to stay
Seasons come and seasons go
There is winter, summer, spring and fall
There is one thing I’ll always know
That you love me, and I love you
